I Hate Feeling This Way

You know when you are facing an upcoming day that you dread. It makes you sick just to think about it. I'm facing that soon and I hate it. It's almost impossible not to cry all day and every day. My visitor visa is up and our migration agent doesn't think we should try again because it might cause problems. But if we don't do that then I will have to find a way to get home and my credit cards were canceled before I could change my flight. I mean there is one more option but for that we need a lot of money. I could get a partner visa with DJ. We have saved but other expenses and emergencies have taken much of that money. February 8th I'm going to have to leave the love of my life or face being deported and not being able to come back for 3 to 5 years. There is a program that could get me home but again, I wouuldn't be able to return for 3 to 5 years.

I struggled for so many years being unhappy and depressed and sick and then God gave me the gift of happiness and health and a real love. I don't quite understand why it's being taken away from me so quickly but it is and there seems to be nothing I can do about it except ask for people to help us. I can't work while I'm here on the visitor visa so there is no way I can contribute which is one of the most frustrating things for me.

I'm here again asking you that if you've ever been given a second chance at life, if you've ever found the love of your life when you thought you'd never love again, if you've ever escaped a toxic situation, please consider donating whatever little bit you can afford to help make sure not only can DJ and I stay together, but that I can continue to heal and be happy and healthy. https://gofund.me/7ec21074

Thanks Everyone!

Until Next Time...